Affect Flash Backs.

We've gone thru steep learning curve times. Times when our affect was skipped over. Times when we misused our strong points or natural gifts. No care giver was available. Times when no support, comfort nor safety comes to us. We long to feel that others like us, welcome us, or listen to us. We long to feel empathy, show warmth, or invite closeness. We long to feel cared about. We seek others so they'll know what we think, feel, do, want, or dream of. We, who go thru this trauma, learn early. No matter how hurt, alien, or terrified we feel, to turn to a care giver will make worse our sense of rejection.
We, who go thru this trauma, see the world as a terrifying place. We're wired to feel scared when left alone. We're wired by DNA to cry and protest to alert our care givers when we are. But when our care givers turn their backs on such cries for help, we're left to cope with a nightmarish inner world - the stuff of which affect loaded flash backs are made.